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That could be. It happened to him. And she wants to testify to it.
Chanel gave us an appointment in her small apartment on the South Shore, where she has just moved, since her separation, of course. Before, she had a big house. Means. A way of life. Today, it is elsewhere, of course. But she has so much more.
“I’ve never read a story like mine,” she begins. I feel like it’s censored. […]. But I wanted to tell myself, because sometimes it can end well. It may be that our soul mate, we meet her in an extra-marital affair…”
Of a visibly reserved nature, Chanel talks about herself here with ease, despite the secrecy that still hangs over her idyll. Everything is still so fresh. Too fresh.
Chanel discovered sexuality around age 16, she says. It was with a first lover. “But it wasn’t true love. ” In bed ? “Dull, so I thought it was dull like that all the time. I didn’t know anything else! »
The story lasts four years, after which Chanel leaves to study. And she studies, precisely. ” Of the one nightI have never done that. […] I was focused on my studies. »
In her early twenties, she has a few flirts“small buddies with whom it never “clicks”. “I was expecting Prince Charming too much, she believes. I was quickly disenchanted. I was always in search of this story that I was waiting for, of a “sexuality wow !”. ” In vain.
Then, in her mid-twenties, she met the future father of her children at a party. “It clicked, I found it funny, and we quickly fell in love. They quickly moved in together, and quickly started a family too.
This time, sexually, it’s better. “Better than what I had known,” she says. It suited me. We had foreplay, it lasted more than four minutes, he was affectionate…”
But ? “But I got pregnant quickly and our sexuality went down. We distanced ourselves. With a quick sexuality…”
After the second child, things don’t improve, quite the opposite. “It was made that we made love once a month. »
Chanel takes a break and dares the bottom of her thought: “I can’t believe it, but I started to become sexually frustrated…” She has mood swings, is less patient and often returns to the subject. “Especially when we had dinners and we drank wine, she slips, I sent him messages: I’ll go look elsewhere if you don’t do your job ! »
For his part, Monsieur reproaches her for being the problem, she must be frigid, etc.
Chanel still remembers their routine at the time: work, supper, homework, bedtime: “Each of his edge, no beak. It was cold, a little. »
Cuddle, maybe 15 years is too long, as a couple?
Chanel
And then ? “And then I started training,” she continues. And I met sir. What do we call it? Let’s say Romeo, she said laughing.
“And we started training together. We managed to go there at the same time. It was very platonic, but we really liked to chat…”
It’s not love at first sight. It is rather through their conversations that a chemistry ends up settling. Moreover, one thing leads to another and from machine to machine, they end up talking about sexuality. “He was also in a relationship,” she said. And nothing was happening. […] I don’t remember how, but we ended up deciding to go to the hotel. »
The adventure is meant to be an “experience”. For her part, Chanel wishes to see if indeed, in bed, she is the concern. “And in the end, it was… ecstasy!” I didn’t expect anything, and that was it. Think: hours of pleasure, making and redoing love. “Everything was perfect,” she insists. Everything was done by itself, I had never known that! »
It was to be one and only adventure. But the chemistry helping, they wanted to start again. Once, twice, a hundred times. Three years of time, to be exact.
Three years ? “Every week,” she agrees. And after three years, it’s even more wow. It never went down. It’s always better. […] It’s always magical, it’s never been good! »
Questions swirl around in our heads. And his life as a couple? The lie ? Did it weigh on him, or not at all? How did she maintain it all? She responds without hesitation. “It put a balm on my heart. I came back home and I was able to do my family life. I was happy somewhere. Admittedly, guilt gnawed at her “at the start”. “The first five or six months, I was doing full anxiety, I was afraid that my boyfriend Feel it, it seems like it was written in my face. But in the long run, less and less. I was so good! »
So good that what had to happen happened. She fell in love. And vice versa. ” And my boyfriend started to get on my nerves more and more. »
We won’t know the details, but the fact remains that Chanel has taken the leap. She ended up leaving her husband. “I told him that I no longer loved him…” That was a year ago.
“Of course I feel bad,” she confirms. He is the father of my children. I have to see him regularly. I’m stuck with this secret. Of course, it would free me to tell him: I cheated on you. But everyone tells me: what would it do me to hurt him? To relieve me? So I keep it to myself…”
Since then, she has taken this apartment and continues to see her lover in secret. For a time. Time to let the dust fall.
And after ? She doesn’t want to make the same mistake again. “I don’t want to live with him as long as I have a child under my roof,” she said. I no longer believe in that, the mould! […] We each stay at home and allow ourselves to be bored. I want it to stay that way all the time. Beautiful. No routine. […] Routine kills a couple…”
* Fictitious first name, to protect his anonymity